Patiently Walking With Us

Two days ago I sat in my office at work intently working on my computer when movement caught my eye. I looked up and walking toward me was one of my coworkers holding the hand of one of our seniors. Her dementia was really causing her more agitation than normal and when she has those days all she wants to do is be on the move.

I watched for a few minutes, smiling, taking in their smiles and the slow methodical steps each of them were taking together, hand in hand. When they got to my office door they turned around and started back down the hallway they had just come up. I looked back to my computer to continue working. I heard a small whisper in my heart, not out loud, Look back up. When I did, the whisper came again, that is how I am with you. You are frantically walking around, unsettled, on the move, agitated and confused but I am there right beside you, holding your hand. No judging, just patient, keeping you company- loving you.

See I have been just like that senior with dementia in my spiritual life. I get so frazzled. I get confused. I get in a state of having to be on the move all the time without knowing why or where I am going. When I started this blog almost two decades ago, I was focused: Write what God puts on my heart. Not for money, not for stats or views, just to share what God was showing me for the hope that it would speak to others too, through me.

See I have allowed man and my sinful heart to direct my steps. Man says, "You are a woman, we can't use you in the church cause you are not a man," or "you have done to many sinful things in your past," or "we looked at your Facebook profile and two years ago you liked a page that we don't agree with" and more and more and more. My sinful heart said, well then I won't even do ministry anymore because I will never be good enough- I will chase status, power, money, stuff..... but here is the punch- it just made me miserable. 

I remember a vision God gave me and instructed me to write down almost 20 years ago about something I would do one day. I wrote it down. I still remember to this day, where I was, what I wrote it on and in. And no matter what I do, I can't forget it. I can't run from it.

God has been more than patient with me and my frantic strides and I am done making myself miserable. See, I have never been more happy than when I am in the Word of God, studying, praying, and taking time in every single day to simply walk with Him. The positions, the stuff, the titles, the money, the status- none of it compares! None of it can touch the joy that I have in my life like I have when I walk with God.

See that is what is funny about when you walk with God, listen to him and allow Him to use you for HIS purpose- you are happier, calmer, and you end up blessing others. 

Galatians 1:10: "Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ."

Colossians 2:6 (ESV): “Therefore, as you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in him”

2 Corinthians 5:7 (ESV): “For we walk by faith, not by sight.”

John 14:27 — "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid."

Romans 14:17 — "For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit."

And I think David said it best....

Psalm 4:7 — "You have put more joy in my heart than they have when their grain and wine abound."

I must admit, I am not the best at telling people when they bless me- I want to get better about that. That coworker I mentioned, her patience and love for the people she cares for is such a blessing. 

I hope that I can be a blessing for others too. Will you join me?

Photo note: This is an AI representation of what I seen looking out of my office door- these are not the real people at my work.