Monday, June 30, 2014

My Home Was Falling Apart!

Homemade bread & brownies!
In today's culture, the home is often overlooked. It's "old fashioned" to be a stay at home mom, cook cakes from scratch, quilt, garden, or a lot of other things. We live in the world of "fast" and "convenient" but for me and my family "fast and convenient" wasn't working. It was taring apart our marriage, ruining our kids behavior and hurting us physically. Allow me to explain. [...]

Sunday, June 29, 2014

I've Gone To Far

I can't believe I just did that!
What was I thinking!?
Why can't I think before I speak!?
I have done it now, I've gone to far.
No one will ever love me.
I am not worth loving.

And on and on it goes. Do you ever talk to yourself like this? I do. But guess what, we can't listen! And here is why! [...]

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Two To Go

Can you believe that June is almost gone!!?? Only two more days till we hit July wide open. I must admit that I LOVE this time of year. The 4th of July did not mean much to me until several years ago. Then after leaving the country this year, I see how truly blessed I am to live here. I will say that I really appreciate and respect our men and women who protect us every day.

But despite the 4th of July plans that I am making and all the decorating that I am doing with flags and red, white and blue colors, I am really excited about July for another reason. Wonder what? [...]

Friday, June 27, 2014

FMF: Lost



I hate it when I can't find something because it has disappeared into the great ocean that is within my four walls. No not the "water" ocean, the "junk" ocean. The toy ocean. The book ocean. The dirty laundry ocean. The dirty dishes ocean. All I know is I am drowning. Drowning in life.

Why does it have to be so hard? So many things pulling for your attention.
Why does no one understand that my world can not always revolve around them? Its not I don't want to help, its just I can't. I need help myself.

But you know, enough is enough. I have re-evaluated, re-prioritized and now, I have a plan. I have planners. I have routines. Slowly but surely I feel like I am at least floating on top of the water.

Lost. Hah!

So long to the "long lost" where ever and hello to the new me!

Stop

Written in response to:
Five Minute Friday

Changes are Coming!

Hey guys! How have you been? I have been great! Super busy but arn't we all! So I have some good news! Changes are coming! I have "weeded" out some non-essentials in my life and now I am back to writing. I figured out I LOVE to write! And I miss you all so much! Getting rid of some things that I no longer need in my life has been so freeing! Sooooooo.... stay tuned. Changes are coming! :)

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Enjoying Every Moment

I am sure you probably get tired of reading reminders about enjoying everyday but I can't help it- It is something dear to my heart. Maybe I don't even put it on here to remind you as much as I do it to remind myself.
One of my deepest fears is that something tragic will happen to my kids. I am so paranoid sometimes it isn't even funny. My husband gets so aggravated at me sometimes and says that I can think up the most crazy things. I can't help it! Working as a 911 dispatcher, I answer phones to hear some of the worst things on the other end.
But today I read a story that reminded me what I have been fussing about for the last several days, is actually something I had better be enjoying. {...}

I Want To .... I Want To .... I Want.

Do you do that? I drive myself nuts sometimes doing it! I want to sew.
I want to read.
I want to cook.
I want to clean.
I want to play with my boys.
I want to surf the internet.
I want to help my hubby on his tractor.
I want...
I want...
I want...
But there is never enough time in the day to do it all!